Sometimes you do the sweetest things. Like cook dinner for me.But I don’t know if that’s something we are supposed to do for each other. I opened up soo much with you I tried to show you who I am hoping you would take me for the good and the bad. We been through a lot of things. I have did a lot of bad things and I admit that, but my intentions were not on purpose. Never in my life would I ever want to hurt you, but for some reason I think you don’t believe I will never hurt you because of the mistakes that I’ve made. I always try to recover from the mistakes, but I am human sometimes when I’m angry I say things that I do not mean. But you never forgive me. I forgave you when you insulted me, chastised me, and yelled at me like I was a kid. You took out your anger on me, but for some reason you do not see your mistakes. You think I am difficult, but I don’t see it. I just wanted to be treated nicely. And i know I haven;t been the greatest, but when I’m good I am good. I put my whole heart in it and I fall on my face. This would be one of the times.
Maybe we have tried to work this out too many times and it will no longer work. I admit Im in love with you and you are not in love with me. The things you say to me can be so hurtful, but I forgive you. Now I am tired. I am tired, yes I did wrong things, but so have you. Im hurt because I thought you changed and you did maybe I unchanged you and if that is the case then Im not right for you. I have to accept that no matter how hard I cry or how much I want this. Some things are meant to be. Just because you ;love someone doesn’t mean that person is right for you. Im not saying this should be easy, but this shouldn’t be this hard either. Maybe I will take all that you said and make me a better person for the next, Until then I will try to put you out of my head as you did me and move on. My friends told me to be careful and I didn’t listen. Ha. I always said he is special, but IDK anymore. I want someone to love me like I love them for once and not treat me wrong. Maybe its ME
The girl with the Broken Heart