May 2013
3 posts
Reflecting
Sometimes you do the sweetest things. Like cook dinner for me.But I don’t know if that’s something we are supposed to do for each other. I opened up soo much with you I tried to show you who I am hoping you would take me for the good and the bad. We been through a lot of things. I have did a lot of bad things and I admit that, but my intentions were not on purpose. Never in my life...
Lovely Hill
But I also love with all my heart. I love you with all my heart I would give you my all. I want to see you as happy as you make me. I dive in deep and don’t hold my breath and Sometimes I drown. (metaphor) lol.
And sometimes I forget to catch my breath forgetting to just breathe and not rush everything all at once.Forgetting to tell myself that great things take time and...
Soooooo
All of my friends are telling me this guy isn’t good for me. I need a lot of reassurance or Do I? I mean every girl wants to be called beautiful and know that they are constantly on someone’s mind. That’s how its supposed to be. I want love, the felling of someone being soo adorned with me they can’t take their eyes off of me. I want someone to drop everything they are...
March 2013
16 posts
feelings
i’m feeling kind of upset and angry !!!!!!!!!! I don’t know why. Ehhhhh I feel like yelling. I want to release what I’m feeling out, but its like a huge block in my throat and my stomach. Oh how I’m sooo angry but IDK at what. Idk at what.
I don’t like being around people too long because I feel like eventually they will think something is wrong. I need to time to get myself together.
I think I’m only going to express myself on here. If I die someone lead people to this page because obviously expressing myself to people face to face is pointless, you try to change, but society won’t allow you to.
Nights Like these
I haven’t drinked alcohol or smoked this week. I’m proud of myself. I’ve been on this new workout regimen. That keeps me busy. I’ve been obsessed with Losing weight or getting fit. BUT just because I didn’t do it doesn’t mean I don’t want to. I am still I don’t even know the word for it. Lol I feel alone, but I’m not alone. I’ve noticed myself drifting off lately, I never know how to fully...
The bad Thing
The “bad thing” has came back, it never goes away. Its a shadow. I can’t make it go away. Its soooo big and dark. It tries to swallow me whole. Take me apart limb by limb. Its sooo intriguing that I want to go to it, but people are telling me NO, but mind wants to be submerge by its entirety. It will control me. The “bad thing” will take my life as if it doesn’t have its own. I cry outloud, by my...
Expression
get your tea cup and join me in the corner. my imaginary friends will keep iss safe. but they leave me when times get rough. I’m not looking for someone to have just someone to understand me. tell me I’m perfect so i don’t have to wonder anymore. overdose with me til you can’t see clear and i promise to pull you back if you just hold my hand for eternity. we can die for...
I have to worry about myself
I’m sure my friend feels the same way. She probably has a lot going on and just needs to focus on herself. Although it hurts to know that my best friend has to contemplate her relationship with me weather she wants me in her life or not, that really upsets me. BUT hey that whole argument she never asked me how I feel or why I was upset.
I never told her why because I was trying to see why...
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There is no right response
What if it’s not OK
What if I don’t want to hear I know you can do it
What If It doesn’t matter what I hear, I will feel all the same. No one can say anything because my mind already has a dispute (its trained) and nothing anyone says makes a difference.
So I have to retrain my brain (easier said than done) I have a Long Long Road :-)
No One knows unless you tell them
I feel like I have trapped myself into this person that people expect me to be.
I have recently noticed a change in myself I guess for the better. I guess lol. So after a lot of research, self interventions, talking to friends, and praying. I have came to the conclusion that I needed help. Now that by far is a very huge thing for me to admit. That I need help. That the person who tries to fix...
